It's been a long week. Not because of what I mentioned in my previous blog - that goes without saying. But I've put in long hours again this week and I don't know that I've gotten any where. No, I take that back. I have achieved one thing at least: I have come to realize that Maya doesn't make me angry any more. Maybe it's because I've finally had enough practice to know what I'm doing (in most cases), or because I'm better at getting correct responses from my Google searches when I run into problems. Either way, working with Maya now is no where near as rage inducing as it used to be.
What is rage inducing is the amount of work that has to be done on this project.
Which brings me to the first 'confrontation' the group had. After reviewing my time-book with my instructor I was told to make sure that Jim and Adam are doing their part too. I shouldn't be the only one stepping up and making this happen. I was to be responsible for this. So, I went back to them and asked how many hours they had put into the project. When I let them know that I had doubled or tripled their amounts, Adam was stunned and responded as I had expected. He would work harder. Jim, on the other hand, took great offense to this. When he confronted me at the next class, he was so frustrated that I thought he might cry. Well, the manager in me wanted to say 'suck it up.' But I've had that level of frustration and I was definitely not in the mood for a confrontation. I did my best to smooth things over, but I'm not sure it worked. I feel like the outsider on this team, and probably rightly so. I'm just frustrated by the situation, and don't have the tools to be able to communicate what I want to them.
I don't like being a team leader. I have always preferred to work as a second in charge. I do a much better job in support than in leading. But in this case I have no choice. I don't really want to go back and read the 'Minute Manager,' but maybe I have to. Until next week, stay tuned...
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